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Being who you are
Oct. 17th, 2007 10:59 pmDoes anyone else out there get this horrible stomach-churning, bowel-grinding, headache-inducing feeling, both nauseous and nauseated, at the merest idea of actually being who you are?
For myself, every time I get close to expressing in a story or work-related or romance-related action something I think might be simply true, I feel ill and want to lie down in a dark room.
Once I'm actually doing or saying the thing, there is a heady sense of freedom and a champagne-drunk-like feeling of dizziness, and that's quite pleasant.
But then it's swiftly followed by anxiety, doubt, and second-guessing. So those people who tell you to "just be yourself"? I think they're like the people writers complain about in their journals, the ones who say to authors, "Why don't you just write a bestseller?"
For myself, every time I get close to expressing in a story or work-related or romance-related action something I think might be simply true, I feel ill and want to lie down in a dark room.
Once I'm actually doing or saying the thing, there is a heady sense of freedom and a champagne-drunk-like feeling of dizziness, and that's quite pleasant.
But then it's swiftly followed by anxiety, doubt, and second-guessing. So those people who tell you to "just be yourself"? I think they're like the people writers complain about in their journals, the ones who say to authors, "Why don't you just write a bestseller?"
