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Jan. 21st, 2007 11:32 pmMy nice relaxing workout this afternoon was interrupted by a spout of antisocial behavior on my part.
I react violently to a few things, I've started noticing. Not to start a pity party, but both of my parents were deeply psychologically disturbed in ways that affected (and continue to affect) their parenting styles, and have caused me continuing damage in my personal interior and exterior life.
So I have learned that I will never be rational when people near me talk about how parents should have more total control of their kids, because it fills me with a deep and visceral fear that I can't seem to fight. And I have a new mantra:
We have a responsibility to speak out when others use speech we consider hateful and wrong, but we can only respond with the strength and grace given to us.
Which means: It is right to speak out, but I have to give myself leeway to acknowledge that I will not always be able to speak in the good, logical, compassionate way I will always aspire to speak.
I react violently to a few things, I've started noticing. Not to start a pity party, but both of my parents were deeply psychologically disturbed in ways that affected (and continue to affect) their parenting styles, and have caused me continuing damage in my personal interior and exterior life.
So I have learned that I will never be rational when people near me talk about how parents should have more total control of their kids, because it fills me with a deep and visceral fear that I can't seem to fight. And I have a new mantra:
We have a responsibility to speak out when others use speech we consider hateful and wrong, but we can only respond with the strength and grace given to us.
Which means: It is right to speak out, but I have to give myself leeway to acknowledge that I will not always be able to speak in the good, logical, compassionate way I will always aspire to speak.
